Maybe I need to try harder.
But I don’t want to let go.
I feel like I should. I order for us to grow…
But grow apart is what we will do.
Shrugs is what I keep saying.
But what I feel is not at all as easy.
I love him… I keep screaming at God.
I don’t understand why?
What could I have done different.
But then I think… he was just what I needed to get where God wanted me to be.
Just a feature not the costar of this film I call life.
Lord I just wanna be right.
Perfect in ya sight.
But at this rate this my fleshly body will be the death of me.
Rid me of these emotions. So I can be free.
Love can be amazing but it also can hurts like crazy.
I know I’m not to blame. This just had to be apart of your plan for me.
Some days I wonder what the future for us holds.
Other days I could careless.
It’ll never be the same that’s what really hurts me.
And the thought of someone else having what once was mine kills me.
But then again I don’t want him!
I deserve better. I need more.
I want a real man not a boy.
Someone that not only has a pure heart but his desires and thoughts are as of the Lord’s.
One day for sure.
My fairy tale will come true because after all this hurt I never lost faith in what my God can do.